Flowers For A Stranger

 

I just got out of a local flower shop, where I placed an order for the above arrangement. This is going to a girl I see frequently at a local office supply store, but not from me. Well they are from me, but she won’t know that!

I’ve sent them anonymously with a note, pro bono – that is to say that I’m not pushing my phone number or E-Mail or anything in the note on the card and she most probably will never discover who sent them. Just a random act of kindness. I did keep the flower shop’s business card though, maybe if I ever see her outside her place of work I’ll just hand that over and see what happens… Unlikely!

Here is the note on the card I sent with!

When I see you, I can’t resist the urge to smile! I hope that this small gesture puts a smile on your face as well so that the whole world can be a little brighter for a moment. I regret that I won’t be there to see it personally, but since I am a secret admirer and a customer I thought it best to remain just that and not make you feel any more uncomfortable!

I hope she gets a kick out of it!

SeekingArrangement 72hr Debrief

 

In one word; overwhelmed. I’m just an average, at best, looking guy with a moderate amount of money and I’m speaking with so many people it is getting overwhelming. I could only imagine what women on that site have to go through, it must take friggin ages!

Some things I have learned:

1. Learning Curve & Closing the Deal

I’ve not had a lot of interaction with women period, let alone any talking with them so candidly and upfront about Arrangements. It does feel strange! I need to learn how to say what and when, though I think I’m catching on O.K. I am still having issues closing the deal though, I’m just so unsure of everything haha.

 

2. Small Fish

It is clearly a big ocean out there, and there is always a better offer than what I can give. Though the girls there still seem to be willing to chat with me regardless about things which is cool. Some of the things they get offered are amazing, and I can’t compete! I will just have to find a way to accept that and try to find a good match.

 

3. Pic Block

So now that I have been on a bit longer, it is pretty clear that the ignores can still come after sending your pictures. Though the rate that people block and ignore me after pictures on other sites is about 75%, over on SA it is probably only around 10% which is a significant difference.

 

4. Non-sexual Arrangements

Some girls ask straight out if sex is going to be involved, some hint at it. I’d really like to meet someone to even see if there is a connection, I realize this isn’t a dating service and I’m still going to sugar the hell out of them, but I can’t jump straight into sex. It is something I need to work up to. Most girls get kind of excited I think when I say it is non-sexual or at least it is non-sexual until and if they wanted to move that part of it forward, but I have come across a few who frown upon it because they think it wouldn’t be worth their while otherwise. They are the minority though.

 

5. Awesome People

There are a lot of awesome girls out there, I am quite impressed with some of them, their attitudes towards life, health, and the fact that they can run circles around me on SA is pretty funny since I still am learning lol.

 

6. Mentor

Lots of, probably over half, state and are actually looking for someone to mentor them with work and life and what not. I’m still kind of young-ish and I’m far far less experienced with dating and the bedroom than any of these people are out there. Not only that but my profession is rather specific and very specialized. I don’t think I’m ever going to meet anyone on SA I could coach or put in contact with the networking. This it seems is where I will fall short most of the time, if not on the scale of attraction first.

 

Well that is it for now, just thought I would summarize those things which are probably pretty obvious to most 🙂

 

 

First 24 Hours With SeekingArrangement

After lurking for a bit on SA I’ve gone Premium, my first 24 hours in it have been… Interesting. So, I ponder this in my mind and write here now listening to some old music. Feeling nostalgic tonight.

It is odd. SA has already given me more contact with people in the first day than most other sites do in a week. Granted, the reason for this is probably myself and not the other sites. I don’t ever show my picture up front, only private and I’m going to guess 10 out of 10 women are going to find that a red flag straight away. Take note of the meme above though, it is quite accurate when speaking of just outing my pic first. Maybe I should though, it feels a lot worse after I get someone talking for 15 mins or so, show the pic, and all of a sudden; blocked. lol. Kobayashi maru.

I had logged into the site and re-created my profile. For some reason the old one got banned, kind of shitty but whatever. While I was getting that set back up and looking for the woman(who Favorited and sent me a message on the other profile, I got a message! I don’t know about other men, but this is kind of awesome because usually I have to work quite hard to get replies. Let alone someone to send me a message on their own.

1. The Teacher

This is the lovely woman who fav’d me and sent the message(that I couldn’t read due to the ban when I tried to sign up and pay). This was the first girl I noticed and profile that I read, it is nearly perfect for what I believe I would look to get out of SA. Her long term interests mesh well with my new health and fitness kick and everything else she expressed in the profile was %100 in line with me. I finished my message to her before responding to the other message I had. Gotta dance with the one that brought ya! I got a reply back from her as well which I was over the moon with. That is it so far, I’m really hanging for the next message to come back to me!

2. The Rocket

Rocket is the one who sent me a message about 15 mins into joining haha. It was plain and simple – thought your profile was interesting, may I see a photo. To my surprise she didn’t disappear after seeing them. That twatty action was taken against me about %75 of the time on every other site. I don’t think I’m exactly what she is after though, she seems to have an over abundance of energy and I think she is looking for the same in return. I can’t force enthusiasm out of my pores about everything on this planet, it is too messed up to pretend lol.

We discussed a few things, she has had two arrangements before. One for a few months and the second for only four weeks, she discovered he was married and she bolted. So I sent her an image of that “Aint Got Time Fo Dat” meme. Wellllll turns out, something weird happened and the link took her to a blog, about someone getting stabbed. Just what you want to fucking send a nice young woman on the internet haha, so so fail. Well, she did still talk to me after that and we had a laugh about it. Conversation has since stalled though.

3. The Shark

I am pretty sure this nice young woman is old skool over on SA. What she certainly is, is very very pretty. She contacted me with a simple – hey how are you. I replied and this time I offered straight away to see my pictures to which she accepted. Then still talked to me, and asked straight away what I was looking to give and receive. I explained what I was after as best as I could, but I get the feeling that since she wasn’t attracted to me she moved into full on “if you want me to be seen in pubic with you’re going to pay for it” mode haha. Can’t blame her really!

Turns out, if I wanted to take the Shark out to an event and dinner, she would have to take the night off in which she explained she made on average $750 a night and in turn I’d need to cover that loss each time. I didn’t counter by asking her, well what about during the day… Even though I was thinking about it in my head. I will have to think about this one a bit more though.

4. The PT

This is great, a PT contacted me! This would be really cool to develop on many levels. Asked for photos, I sent them back with a small introduction. This is where SA shines for me, you can tell if someone read your message or not, she hasn’t read it yet. This stops me from thinking at least she saw the pics and ran away screaming 🙂 One issue, while her profile does mention things like low maintenance her expectation is set for High. To me that does seem a bit contradictory, but what do I know yet really! That leads me to believe I wouldn’t be able to provide a comfortable arrangement with her, but I suppose we will see.

5. Spidergirl

Spidergirl seems very cool, her profile too has all of the key words in it for me to take notice and with a lot of strength. After sending the pics she asked for she asked why I was on this site. Again I tried to do the impossible and unravel my thoughts into text about why I was on SA. I don’t just copy and paste, I am sure a lot might. She said that we would get along fine, and that her profile turns away a lot of people. I am not sure why it did, it is what attracted me to her more 🙂 She is gone for now but left it quite open, I will follow up with her for sure.

So there you have it, more interaction with women off SA in a day than off any site I’ve tried before over a damn week and I haven’t had a chance to run any searches or send any messages out myself! It is a different place, it is full throttle, if I can find a way to keep myself from sinking and swim I think that SA will provide me a wealth of experience in interacting with women.

FAIL

 

Sometimes the universe is incredibly kind to you. Or is it? What if the universe gives you a great opportunity but not the skills to deal with such an occurrence? Seemingly and even in my opinion it wouldn’t really be the universe’s fault since all the skills you have are learned directly from it, good or bad, so then it would come down to the individual. Hence; the Universe can be kind and I can FAIL.

We just had a big staff briefing at the office. There were around 120 people there and it was a pretty sung fit for all of us. I stood on the side of the room half way up to the presenters with the group of people I work with daily. Then for some reason the Receptionist comes around, talks to a few people before the presentation and then comes to stand next to me when it starts…

I’ve had mixed feelings about her for a while now, you know it doesn’t really feel great when there is someone you like and you’re positive they can’t or wouldn’t reciprocate those feelings. One thing is the same though because when she stood next to me I was like a leaf in the wind… When she looks at me, I disconnect from the world around me. Heart rate up, body temp up, self consciousness through the roof. Kind of feel like I’m in middle school again standing next to my first crush, it is so very embarrassing!

There wasn’t much interaction between us, some, could have been more if I had half a testicle to be my usual fun, witty, and playful self around her. But yeah, the FAIL runs strong in this one! Wan’t another example? Sure. A few times she got a bit close, I’m not sure why because it wasn’t quite that packed in there, but our arms touched a few times and I always immediately freaked out each time and gave her more space. The last time it happened, I didn’t pull away, so for about 5 mins I felt her energy(in heat form cos I didn’t have any crystals ya’know) which was probably the highlight of my week.

I know what you’re thinking trust me, thinking it myself. Grow a pair! Here is a cup of concrete to harden up! Haha, well, I suppose it all starts at home. I’m working on myself and my own confidence first. When I feel I have something to offer a beautiful person like the Receptionist, I will feel a bit more comfortable interacting with that person.

I hope!

 

Another Fashion Strikeout!

 

Tried out some new clothes at work today. After losing so much weight I can now fit them, in fact my skinny pants that I was waiting to try out are now too big lol. Turns out, that might not be a bad thing… Thought I looked decent in the clothes for a change, but just when I think I’m doing well someone at works walks up and makes a shitty comment about what I’m wearing and being from a farm or something.

Guess it is back to the fat baggy clothes until I can figure out how to dress myself and will just have to write off the $600 I spent on all that. People can be cock suckers sometimes!

A New Hot Date On The Horizon?

 

Recent experiences, some I’ve detailed here and some I have not, have clearly shown there to be some kind of defect where it involves me interacting with a woman I believe is cute or like in any way shape or form. This is a big problem. I quite obviously need some education on the matter despite my age before I have the confidence to actually do this for myself in more real world situations.

To help combat my issues, I’ve decided to sign up to SA. I have no idea if this is the right thing to do or not, or if it will even help me but at this point I’m kind of feeling that nothing is going to make me any worse!

I’ve filled out my details and I’ve had a quick browse over a few profiles, I’ve not initiated contact as of yet but already there is a girl who has made contact with me… Already SA feels different, I’ve given up on internet dating a long long time ago because it felt like I had to beg to even get to chat with someone and I’m not about that at all.

Well… Here it goes, wish me luck, I’ll sure need it!

My New Cologne – Effective %60 of the Time; EVERYTIME

 

Many thanks to IMAGINARY POWERTRIP for giving up another secret, at least to this inexperienced foo, this time to lure in with some effective cologne. I took it out on it’s first test drive, and just for just a second I thought this powerful new weapon had gotten me into a porno scene during a medical scan I had today, of course it didn’t but for a moment a man can dream!

I went for a nuclear medicine MRI today to check out how I am healing, clear bill of health as far as that goes it turns out so that is great I can keep moving forward. I saw the nurse, or technician, on duty from where I was sitting to wait. She was beautiful, my lucky day I thought! They weren’t making me change into one of those ridiculous gowns either so that was great, or was it?

She brings me in, gets me to remove all metal(made sure I wore a non-offensive belt today) and lay down on the scanner’s bed. She has a quick look at my chart and then at me, and then comes over. I am on a slight incline, so my shoulders and head are at the lower slope while my feet are at the other end, maybe two or three feet higher than my head. She says to me; “I’m going to need to get you to remove your pants for this one.”

Well shit, it is worse than the gown I thought to myself. “Not a problem.” of course I replied as I started to undo my belt. The next thing I hear is “No-no, I’ll get that for you.” And the next thing I see is a giant grin on her face, as she is literally taking my belt off and pulling down my pants, haha. She talks again while she is still pulling down my pants mind you, by then I am sure my face is more red than a Qantas tail fin, so close to me I think I could even feel her breath across my skin; “So what is that cologne? I like that a lot.”

I can honestly say I was completely and utterly useless at that point. I actually responded with “I’m not really sure, just kinda grabbed one I liked and I don’t really remember.” Lol, an English friend of mine would probably tell me that was a “complete cock up” I am sure, and I would have to agree!

Sometimes I am even a mystery to myself, but, one thing is always totally predictable; the fumble!

 

 

Daily Post – Places: The Beach!

Places

 Well, it is just after midnight and I can’t be bothered to try and sleep when I know I can’t.  I have been, and always shall be, a… Night Owl.

I’ll keep this one short an simple again, the choice was between your typical archtypes, which would I choose: Beach, mountain, forest, or somewhere else entirely?

I’ll go with the beach! Why? Because I hate it! Crazy? YES. 🙂 So the reason would be, I hate all the beautiful people at the beach, I’m insecure and I want to be one of them. Well, with any luck in the next 6-12 months I will have the confidence and maybe half the looks they do and I will one day brave the beach and that is why I choose the beach!

 

Art of War Followup

A while ago now I posted Art Of War so I will just quickly follow up on that. I did end up making something and it turned out, meh, I clearly have no artistic ability when it comes to crafts. Not yet at least.

In any case, instead of finding a way to deliver the project to the Receptionist without her knowing who it came from I took a different approach. Instead of making it personal like that, and really in my view maybe even a bit creepy, I hung the thing up above my desk lol. When she is back from vacation, she isn’t going to miss that and will certainly get her to talk to me without a doubt.

I can’t wait to post about how that conversation goes after it happens; train wreck without a doubt!

 

This will never end ‘Cause I want more

 

So I am a guy and I tend to watch guy things on the boob tube. I like me some good medieval period pieces. I like me some good sword play. I like me some blood. I like me Vikings beaucoup. Though Season 3 of Vikings saw the Judith character replaced. An almost exact copy of the Receptionist visually.

This is conflicting me and is in a way making the show less enjoyable. That is kind of funny really, I mean what the? I suppose when you are kind of trying not to think of anyone and you are reminded of them it is always problematic, right, but this is just a bloody TV show. I’m rolling my eyes right now more than you are, trust me.

Sightings at work have also increased, no longer being a Receptionist, she is around the office quite a bit now. Still every time I see her I just turn away as quickly as I can, leave the room or otherwise ignore her. I don’t know why, nor can I fully understand just yet but I seem to get weird vibes from/around her. I’m going to have to get over that pretty soon though Three days soon. I am finally going to start that program at work and will be seeing her, as well as others, in group PT a couple of times a week. Have all the doctors certificates required and the spare time is starting to finally creep back to me too.

Time to get over a few more things; public display of exercise which scares me shitless, and my awkwardness around the Receptionist.

I suppose as the song goes… “After the night when I wake up, I’ll see what tomorrow brings.”